Today is going to be a good day even though I'm facing impending doom

Today is going to be a good day, even though I'm facing impending doom. Codi jingled with offer for coffee, so I got up, pulled myself together she showed, we had sea, (coffee) and she was off to to Arizona, returning in a few weeks to be here full time on air. Told her my plight with my personal utilities problem, didn't ask her for it, but she knows, just hoping that my Bishop and or a pay day loan can help. 
On the subject and it must be brought up here, there is a fine line between the organizations money and my personal money. My money is what little I squeeze from a military pension, the shop/tow truck, and SSI. Out of which my domicile rent utilities and basics comes out of, including the shop rent. Does not leave much. The Club's money funds, employee pay, studio/office rent, operational money for the radio gig and shares some of the operational money for the shop. My lady SheWolf was barking about where the money she contributes goes. It's helping me that helps the club pay for the Shop, and her back medical bills and so on. That mere $500.00 a month does not do it all. Any time you go to a ER for anything the costs are about 20 times they would be for anything else anywhere else. Example, fell of a bike the other day. Got a terrible case of road rash, went to the ER for a bandage. Cost $1,500.00 $400.00 of which was for the damn bandage. $400.00 for a bandage, that might have cost $10.00 at WalMart(I know should have went there but I was dripping blood as well and needed gravel picked out of my side in the process.) When my SheWolf was here she had a situation caused mostly by nerves and all, that required a trip, to our local ER. After some testing she got a albeit heavy duty, but a very serious muscle relaxer and a serious TUMMS. Cost $5,500.00 . The Club paid for that, for her. If she had've stayed here and we worked things out at the time, she could have been paying back the club, at $300.00 or so a month, instead of the agreed $500.00 she's paying now. Some ask, how come I don't have to pay back the organization for such things? I do, its that I do it through service, rather that up front cash. Part of that service is riding herd on this radio network. Plus doing business negotiations for the organization. In the Knytes, member, or officer, or wife/girl of a member/officer still has to pay back the organization. There are no free rides. The reason, I don't go now to the Club for my utility problem, is that I'm up to my neck in debt to the organization now,. Up to the point that Codi showed up, the Club was bent on trading broadcast licenses and me exiting to either Montpelier Idaho or American Falls Idaho. The latter being dangerous, since my XYL and mother to my son, lives in Pocatello, and as such not a big fan of the idea being that close to Pocatello. American Falls is only about 20 miles or less from Pocatello. Otherwise I'd be there already. 
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